Here I am, basically a year into transition. It’s tough to pinpoint a beginning point, there are lots of firsts that have happened, but it is not a stretch to call it about a year. In this year I have been in almost constant wonder at all the things I have discovered, and uncovered, and recovered during this transition to living my true self. One of the most surreal elements to this change is trying to come to terms with my changing sexuality in many dimensions. When I was under the influence of testosterone, I had a very insistent libido. I pretty much constantly was thinking about sex. Included in that were the physiological responses to those thoughts, namely physiological arousal. This was enjoyable in many cases. But also, it was dysphoric, as spontaneous erections often struck me as annoying, improper and a much too insistent reminder of masculinity. Sex was enjoyable, very much so, up to a point. I loved foreplay. Kissing and cuddling, petting and playfulness, really anythi